i tried logging in again

i tried logging in again but i couldn't do it. i made it to the plane of knowledge but literally after saying hi to one person i was on my way out. there's just something about that game that really just makes me want to get the fuck off my computer. when i did a /played i came up with 400 days. most of those days weren't done by me. dind has been a box for a couple years now and before that i used to use him as a bazaar drone but that still is a large number. i did play the fuck out of that game. you could kindof say i uncovered every secret. i really did love that game but of course thats exactly how you can destroy something for yourself especially when the coders are putting in continually less effort and content for the players to mess with. honestly its a shame because the people who run the game now have turned it into something that i just can't even stomache any more. there used to be a time that i felt that everquest was pretty much the best thing out there. but at this point i'd rather play a wii and the catch is i never play wii. honestly its a shame because when they had that game right it was done very well but over years they've managed to remove most of what was good.

when i went to the fan faire i guess you could say alot of my drive to play went down the tube. it was there i realized what kinds of people were spending their lives playing this game. i mean some seriously dense people that were just outright embaressing to be around. these were the butts of nerd jokes the ones that you just can't help but take notice of when you're around and apparently these guys were the ones that really wanted to come to the convention. it was then that i realized what everquest had become basically home for the fanboys and fangirls but an unhospitable place for anyone else who was either genuinely interested in the game not for the inane collecting or the tedious tradeskilling but mainly for the breakneck speed fun. it was those sorts of players that seemed to be dying off. and instead of that most of the people in the room were just honest to god roleplayers. that just shocked the shit out of me as i never anticipated such a fluffy set of players on this game. but such was the case and i just had no idea that so many people on the boards and online were like this. it just kinda made me not want to play everquest anymore like some sort of terrible secret that just sortof consumes you when you become aware of it. the fantasy was shattered and the reality was horrifying.

the one thing that i did notice was how cool the devs jobs really were. i mean these guys got to make things for a living. they were world builders coders paid to color things and write storylines and create a fantasy world for players to play in. its gotta be a very rewarding job as your creations are actively messed with and then feedback is given to you. in another way it could be a thankless job and those sorts of players that started to populate the convetion could likely be the cause of many headaches. i mean these were literally idiotic people those who werent very smart at all and all felt they knew alot about the game which really is not a good sign especially given how little they really knew. i mean it has to be probably one of the most frustrating jobs out there. these guys were reduced to tech support even though they did such an amazing job building worlds as well. the same people who took the brush to the canvas would have to field answers to complaints and i can't help but think that that sort of treatment would have dire effects on their will to be creative and pour their best work into this game. the developers of this game have a high turnover rate some going to new games others staying within the company but i can see how people couldn't last long at that job.

i will say this though there was a time where everquest had the right type of player and during that time there was a sincere interest in just plainly playing the game and enjoying it for what it was. over time though those players naturally lost interest and those that were left were some obsessive bastards that felt everything in the game could be changed given enough whining. the attitude of these kinds of players is just disgusting. having lead raids and guilds i wasn't used to any sort of toleration of nuisance and nonsense in-game but when it comes to devs they don't seem to have any such method or reasoning to shield themselves from the idiots. in fact they perhaps feel like its the job that they're being paid to do. i guess thats probably one of the most depressing aspects of the job of an everquest developer. just watching the demographic change and have something that was once good be drained until it was white. it reminds me of how in england in certain cities large muslim populations displace the locals and it causes lots of stress as patrons move out of town and then family businesses shut down and that transition process is just painful to see. but a wise person can recognize that its just the next batch of peoples turn as those originals have had their day and should find greener pastures.